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Lunar Healing Meditation

Full Moon Writing Excercise

Narayan Kriya (cleansing the water elelment for prosperity and health)

“There are three things that cannot be hidden: the Sun the Moon and the truth.”
The Buddha


It may seem easy for you to worship the Sun, due to its life giving properties. But Mother Nature is at her best on the lunar eclipse, during which a writing meditation can benefit the mind and body a thousand fold.
We call upon the Moon’s energy when practicing any type of forward bending. This is the ‘Ha’ in ‘hatha yoga’ it brings a calm and nurturing polarity to our being, which is underpinned by a sense of clarity, unlike its counterpart the sun (Tha).
The Moon’s energy can help us to look within and centre ourselves. It is here, we begin to heal inner conflict and transcend habitual patterns, by turning our darkness towards the light.

Sit in a steady, comfortable posture; ground through your root chakra (Muladhara), at the base of the spine. Gently lift upwards from the occipital bone, the lower part of the skull, to awaken the Ida and Pingala nadis (the left and right channels through which pranic energy travels). You might notice the more you lift, the more grounded you feel. Here, as the calming energy of the moon meets any inner resistance, you can experience the joyful pulling apart of any old neurosis to which you have been clinging.

Next, invoke all ascended Indian and Tibetan yogis to witness and consecrate this sacred practice. Now begin to write and then write some more: write down solutions to your fears, doubts and any ill feelings that are currently holding you back. Write loose and free as if the Divine himself were to answer your requests. As the moon governs the great oceans, you may shed some tears while writing – let them flow, for this is a ‘letting go’ of trapped emotions you may have been holding.

Now leave your words, and worries alike, in the moonlight by your windowsill to be cleansed by the healing beams of light.

Release yourself into the night knowing that you are safe and loved in her arms.


Sat Narayan Hari Narayan Hari Narayan Hari Hari

The Art of Dying

Dying-gracefullyAs students of yoga, our approach to right living and a thirst for truth is equal to how satiated we become by our practice. As a result, we continue to sip from the vast ocean of wisdom that the great Yogi’s unveiled to reach liberation. Their quest, like the Buddha’s, was not a selfish act but one of pure compassion; that all sentient beings may be free from the karmic cycle of birth and death known as Samara. In the west, this ideology of reaching nirvana or uniting with the source of all creation is often frowned upon and has been tainted by many religious doubts and hypocrisies.
To the layman, cleaning up one’s act and living a harmonious, fulfilling life, is perhaps easier to grasp than looking at the taboo of death. However, the ancients knew that the time of death was, like birth, a significant polarity point in one’s life. Much as the map of one’s life is determined by the genetic imprint of the parents, so too is the ongoing journey of the soul (Jiva) at the time of death. In the Tibetan art of dying, known as the Bhardo Thodol, it is said there is an intermediate state where conscious awareness continues for a period of 49 days after the body loses its life force. Here the deceased are capable of recognizing confusing and often frightening Bhardo visions as a reflection of their mental state and the way they have lived their lives (karma).
Of course, atheists endeavour to sweep such ludicrousness under a door mat of disbelief. They would prefer to continue the fight for control of their destinies as if they are immortal. Yet, on a day to day basis, life reveals that we have little or no control on the grand scale of things. Think about it, what has happened in your life that you did not expect; did not want to happen or would have avoided at all costs, and yet…
Cultivate the mind of a yogi
tolasanaTo cultivate the mind of a yogi or acquire a Buddha nature is something that even the most unpractised seek to attain in their daily lives. Why, because peace is the natural state of existence, and whenever we are outside of this we strive to change things. We may seek to have more, become more or even swap the cards of life that we have been dealt completely. Whatever the case, when out of harmony or dissatisfied with ourselves we seek to change things. Knowing this brings about the importance of acceptance. Each time we accept our current state of play we become unified with the timeless void from which we belong. It is during such moments of peace, where the vacillating waves of mind no longer distract us that we feel most at home. Here, the hankering after material processions seems insignificant, and the battle of holding onto unwavering happiness ceases.
Find the time to die every day
In order to instill peace in the world, the ancient seers of India and Tibet opened a gateway of knowledge, for us to pass through. They did this by sharing the alchemy of life and, at the cringing faces of most, death. Of course, modern science and quantum physicists now prove their findings are mysteriously accurate. However, to face death, or even mention the word, rears up waves of resistance in both laymen and aspiring yogis alike. However, to face the ‘enemy’ of death, and welcome it as part of your evolutionary process, is perhaps one of the most beneficial practices you can do.
Yoga Sleep
dying‘Momento Mori’ is a Latin phrase which practicing Monks often use to greet one another. It literally means remember death, remember that you are going to die so cherish this day like it’s your last. In Sirvasana, the corpse pose, we are taught to do die a little. If our practice serves us well, here we enter the state of Yoga Nidra or yoga sleep. This is a journey destined for astral plains and beyond, where the veils of the physical world diminish. Like the rolling up of a yoga mat, we shed the carcass of the body before its more subtle layers known as the koshas. Here, in pretend preparation for the dissolution of the elements, we get a taste of pure awareness without the bondage of the physical form. The elements dissolve back from where they came: earth melts into water; water dissolves into fire; fire transforms as air and then air into ether (space).
Such a process is often felt by patients when death is imminent. A sudden heaviness in the body is often reported (earth); before a cold sweat (water); this then leads to clammy flu-like symptoms (fire); before a tingling sensation around the throat (air); finally there is no feeling, as the vital life force moves beyond the thinking mind (either). Practitioners of yoga clearly identify with such elements when studying the chakra system and, as a result, they seek to refine this human/cosmic intelligence. We call this Yoga in action, and when mastered correctly it promises the ultimate goal of Samadhi, a state of blissful light profusion.
Spiritual Mumbo Jumbo
Of course, in the eyes of many, such mumbo jumbo again rears the ugly head of doubt; a trait that incidentally was recognized by the yogi masters as the root of all human dissatisfaction.
However, it is proven, during such rehearsals for death the mind, body and energy system seem to transcend somehow and, when consciousness remains, a new state of reality comes to light. It is here where the thinking mind cultivates the acceptance, a trait most valuable at the time of the inevitable. By accepting that the form, to which we are so attached and often obsessed about, is both impermanent and transient we loosen our fears about life – and death. The process reveals the value of every wakeful moment and, as a result, our relationships and the rest of our life’s journey are significantly enhanced.

‘Where is there delusion when truth is known? Where is there desease when the mind is clear? Where is there death when the breath is controlled, Therefore surrender to yoga’

Tirumalai Krishnamacharya


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Wonder Cure – IBS – Dadimashtaka Choornam

Meditating Female

Wonder cure – IBS, malabsorbtion & fatigue conditions.

I have been using Dadimashtaka Choornam  Anar (Pomegranate) for some time now after being recommended the wonder powder (churna) from an Ayurvedic Dr friend in India. I found it particularly helpful with increasing my appetite after a period of chronic illness. As a result, I managed to put on weight and increase my energy levels after being told I may never be active again. When health becomes compromised, the digestive fire (agni)  is weak, due to malabsorption. Of course, it’s easy for folks to say, ‘get some food down you lad/lass’ but this is of no use whatsoever in this instance.

Ayurvedic proverb: ‘Over consumption is the King of diseases and the disease of Kings‘. Alongside taking the correct medicinal herbs, there needs to be great emphasis on following a good diet; this includes consumption, food choices and eating habits. A little like throwing logs onto a fire, too much food causes the digestive fire to be dowsed and creates even more digestive/health problems down the line. Better to take smaller portions and get the ‘fire’ strong, so to speak; the food you then take onboard is converted into energy more efficiently. The churna, made from powdered pomegranate skin, has a combination of tastes (sweet, astringent, sour, slightly hot and unctuous)  and so pacifies all the Doshas (pitta, kapha,vata). It is not exactly the tastiest drink that will ever pass your lips, but its healing properties are far worth the trade off. Taking this churna 1 hour before meals and at bedtime, on an empty stomach, has reduced all my symptoms completely.

Drink your food and chew your drink

Reducing meat and dairy can have profound positive effects on digestive related illnesses, which, by the way, is recognised to be most health conditions according to Ayurveda – because we become what we eat. However, if one is to irradiate meat and dairy altogether it is best-done gradually using alternative protein sources. Believe it or not, how the food and drink is swallowed is equally as important. The phrase ‘drink your food and chew your drink‘ is my most used mantra. When hungry, it’s easy to gulp down food, in order to stop your hunger pangs, but as a result bloatedness and lethargy soon follows. This way of consuming has no bearing on healthy eating – no matter what quality the food is. Eating quickly and washing your food down with lashings of cold juice, wine or even water also impairs digestion (think of the fire analogy). The goal set by my Doctor was this: one-third food, one-third warm water and one-third empty. This equation gives the gastric juices time to process the contents of your belly and time to rest before the next sitting.

Happy digesting!

Fighting Poverty on the Frontline

DSCN1847Fighting Poverty on the Front Line
You don’t have to sit for hours in equipoise meditation before you become a Yogi. No, the path of Kama Yoga is one of action. Of course, not just any old actions will do; they must be actions born from good intention and benefit others. The great news is anyone can do this. It requires neither flexibility nor lungs like bellows. In fact all you need is a big heart! It would matter not even if your heart had a slight defect. Why, because intention is not a physical act it is a psycho-emotional one, even a person with a heart problem can give generous amounts of love. I recently had the pleasure of meeting such a man. David Calvert Orange is a Yogi, without ever having practiced yoga in the conventional sense. He is a retired school master who was forced to leave work early, due to a heart defect. Since then, all he has done is unconditionally give to others. The ripples of his work have changed the lives of hundreds of poverty stricken families in South India.
Lottery Wish List
Supposing you won the lottery tomorrow, what would you do with all that lolly? David told me he would spend it on his charity ‘The Wheel of Hope’ which feeds and educates more than 150 deprived children on a daily basis. He expressed his urgency to win the lottery so the charity could purchase a building instead of renting. David is one of a small group of individuals who run the charity, appropriately named the ‘Happy Home’. David, Pamela and Suresh alongside a board or trustees selflessly give their time to raise funds to keep Happy Home operational. The school provides valuable life skills and tuition to youngsters from poor fishing families, who would otherwise fall slaves to the slums in which they live. But the charities work delves much deeper than child education. Due to most children coming from broken and abusive homes, Wheel of Hope also provides counselling for mothers to help ease welfare issues in the home. As a result, the project has a profound impact on the whole community. However, the work is relentless and due to increasing property prices the charity is under threat unless it secures a building of its own.
You may be able to help
Whether you buy from your local Oxfam or donate to a chosen charity, you will know that supporting a good cause is as rewarding for the giver as it is the receiver. But just how much of your cash do the beneficiaries actually receive? Some large organisations have so many overheads and salaries to pay that it is hard to locate where exactly our donations go.
Aside from these large organisations, which without doubt do great work, there are those fighting poverty on the front line, individuals and small charities that give from hand to mouth. Wheel of Hope is one of these. Sadly the charity relies on fund raising from people such as you and me. However, this could all change with one final push. This latest campaign, to buy a property, will ensure long term sustainability. Without such facilities, the project will inevitably rely on fundraising activities, the likes of which David’s team will not be able to sustain forever. After seeing his work, my own lottery wish is to see that Wheel of Hope does not vanish without leaving a legacy. If David’s story inspires you, as it did me, and you would like to help, you can get involved in a number of ways.
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A Cleaner South India


A Cleaner South India

At a first glance, you could be mistaken that the people of Kerala are carless when it comes to environmental matters. Visit most cities, towns or small villages and you will be appalled at the amount of litter you see. However, this is not down to ignorance; you cannot be ignorant about something you are not aware of. Traditionally, in the kitchen, clay pots, banana leaves and bamboo were used. This meant they could be discarded onto the land without concern. Of course these natural materials biodegrade over time and present no pollution to the environmental. The problem nowadays, is that the same mindset is being followed but the materials have changed.

As India develops, the use of plastic is increasing; but this is not being balanced by education and resources for recycling. The Government may have taken a stance on such issues, by banning the manufacture of plastic bags in Kerela, but without education their message falls on deaf ears.

What to do?

In matters of religion and how to treat others, India far supersedes its western neighbours. But, as India competes in the global marketplace, many ancient traditions are being lost. Also, education with regards to global warming and protecting the environment is sadly being overlooked. For this problem to be solved India must better educate its youth, because they are the messengers of tomorrow. Sadly the common youth looks to the westerner and aspires to be more like him.

There is hope however. Thanks to Yoga and Ayurveda some of India’s ancient wisdom is being celebrated and preserved. Westerners are visiting India in their droves, in the hope that they can learn some of India’s secrets. They know, all to well, the side effects of progress and how this affects the body mind. But such visitors must bring with them a give rather than gain mindset; how can they contribute to a better India? The results of such mindset will greatly impact the India of tomorrow.

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Clash of the Coconuts

om frogAs meditators, we spend many hours, inwardly gazing at the ocean of karma that crashes against our insides. But no matter how strong the need becomes, to understand our idiosyncrasies and undo suffering, we must not lose touch with the outside world. Sure it is nice to find that perfect, quiet spot where the world leaves us alone once in a while. But it is wise to remember that meditation is a means to an end, a way of finding peace with the other – whoever that may be. Only then can we find true unity.
Of course, it is not easy to ‘find’ peace and even more so when we go looking for it! I liken the seeker of peace, through meditation, to the story of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. The golden ticket is the prize that every child in the land seeks, but it seems the more they search, the less chance they have of finding it! Then, along comes Charlie, he throws his faith into the wind. He knows that buying a winning ticket is not something he can will, but it is something he can enjoy, regardless of the outcome.
Through meditation, we become more like Charlie; we forget the ‘prize’ and simply remain aware of the process. Here, our afflictions to peace are revealed, and we learn to drop them one by one. We do this by observing our thoughts and witnessing the presence of our karma. We notice the disturbance this brings and allow any aversions we have to come through. Next, through the breath, we release anything other than peace – all that we are not. A peaceful, compassionate state becomes the by-product of our observations.
But that’s not the end of it! Next comes the tricky part, integration. How to remain peaceful and compassionate in daily living? Like anything worth working hard for, the process can be challenging. It matters not how peaceful you are inside the outside world will do its best to stretch you. The real work begins at the parameter of our inner world; here we build a bridge to the outside world. The two must merge. To remain inwardly focused is not the life of a liberated human being.


Imagine the scenario: you are on a tropical Island and have found the perfect meditation spot. Here, palms sway gently back and forth as the sea breeze cools your skin. The only person in your vicinity is a local man perched high-up in a tree picking coconuts. You sit down breath in the salty air and go inward; it is so much easier when in paradise. After a short period, it seems bliss is well within your grasp. You are in perfect harmony with your environment – or are you?
You cannot believe it; a voice appears, ‘Excuse me sir’. Your heart jolts, causing your nerve ends to tingle, but you try to remain poised. This is your time and nothing will disturb you. Your inner voice tells you; it is probably some fellow selling beads or possibly a beggar. You remain steadfast! And so, the outside world continues turning while you get back to your inner work. But seconds seem like hours and you cannot maintain focus. Your inner and outer worlds are in conflict, and there is no escaping this. Something is not right; you open your eyes, and there standing in front of you is a man waving a machete. His limited English affords him, a second excuse me sir. He then points to a rope dangling from a cluster of Coconuts in the tree he has just climbed from. When released the coconuts could swing in your direction, which would result in your head being removed from your shoulders. You jump to your feet as though you have sat on a termites nest. Thus confirms, your stubbornness to remain locked in peace was anything but harmonious…

It is a good job someone was practicing momentary awareness.
It happens – it happened to me. (lesson learn’t : go inwards by all means, but remain aware of the outer world).

Sleeping with the Enemy

A ‘crash’ course in yoga, to prevent you from crashing

If you ever had the pleasure of visiting South India, you will know how important it is to protect yourself from what is commonly known as the ‘Mozzi’. Apart from the fact that these little critters transmit disease, they can devour a human, like a shoal of piranha, in seconds (ok, I slightly exaggerate). Due to this antagonising little shit, it is best that the traveller lay under a net at bedtime. That is, if he or she aims to sleep with any degree of comfort. It matters not if you take a room of the highest standard or the highest floor; the ‘Mozzi’ likes its ancestor the ‘Nazzi’ will do its best to bring you suffering.

So, we make our bed and we lay in it. In this case, you have surrounded yourself with protective netting to avoid being ravished!  Your safe haven is so well made that a herd of Elephants couldn’t penetrate it (there I go again). There are no gaps and no way, even the most cunning of mosquitoes’ could enter. But, there is a problem; you closed your fortress doors with a ‘Nazzi’ inside. And, this blood thirsty beast has the intention of you becoming a pin cushion, by morning you will look like you have the mumps. My point is this: you may have the best intention to avoid suffering, but unless you look inside correctly, you will suffer.

Are you asleep or awake?                                                                                                                       

In his book ‘Living Dangerously’ Osho suggests that a Yogi is simply one who is together, one who is aware of their actions and aligned with truth. I have told many students a simple example of what yoga isn’t, it goes like this: Two students are practicing side by side, the first is perfectly aligned in seershasanam (head stand) the other is sitting cross legged in padmasana. The first student has the posture nailed, the other is slightly twisted at the waist and the head droops slightly forward. One is practicing yoga, the other is not. Of course, due to the nature of me asking, it is quite probable that the underdog is the one actually practicing yoga, but how? How can it be, that the student out of kilter is practicing yoga and the upright one is not? The answer is simple, the first student is proud as a peacock; he has read many books and due to his persistence has forced his body to align upside down. The second, however, the true yogi, is comfortable with his effort. He knows that the posture will develop in due course. So long as he gives his best and remains true to his own capability, and not that of his fellow student, he remains in union (yoga). So, one student is awake, the other is asleep. When you are asleep, yoga can become the enemy.

I have personally witnessed the enemy face to face. I have also seen the enemy on the face of others; it’s not a pretty sight. Due to the thirst of attaining yoga, I became bedridden with a chronic illness for 2 years. Then, after being confined to a life of insular desperation, it took a further 3 years to make my recovery. The enemy has the capacity to destroy you! Of course, it’s not yoga that will take your soul, but more so your desperation to reach it. My story was one of desire, I learnt about yoga, and then applied everything I learnt with the motivation of a Trojan.  I became chronically exhausted, to the point that I might as well have eaten the books I read.

They say, ‘the eyes are a window to the soul’, but mine were whirlpools of confusion. You may have seen this in some seekers – they become inwardly drawn – their search is so strong. I was told I must look inside that the enemy is within. Of course doing this, without caution, can be contra indicatory. Yoga is about making peace with the world not alienating ourselves from it. Since my subsequent recovery, I now practice yoga from a place of knowing and not of seeking. I would say, the main ingredients for reaching this state, were observation, reflection and acceptance. Not to mention the mantra: be patient; be patient; be patient.

Practice yoga like a Russian athlete and your peril

During a visit, to the mosquito capital of India, I spent time in an ashram where I met a young Russian lad whose desire to enter yoga was troublesome. I saw the enemy in his eyes; it was like looking into the mirror of my past. The Swami who was running the course expressed concern; the boy was not eating and losing vitality by the day. With an unrivalled persistence to reach the state of meditation the young lad was so withdrawn that his capacity to engage in life was worrying. Often, in mid conversation, the young lad would switch the topic, to matters of super-consciousness. It was as though he did not wish to be of this world and sought to reach nothing less than instant bliss. Between classes, whilst the other students were interrelating, the boy sat searching for his ‘true self’, admirable maybe, but disturbing also. His room was littered with books, but his eyes looked tired, tired of searching for answers.

Through my experience I have learnt to see the world through different eyes, the eyes of momentary awareness. I like to look for the message that every moment presents – it is treasure after all. I remember sitting with the young lad at lunchtime, and it was not long before he asked about the ‘secret’ power of pranayama. Surely if he could master this, he would reach his goal. I told him to be careful what he reads, the development of such practice needs to be taught by a master. I referred to our lunch which included idli, a soft dumpling made from fermented black lentils and rice. I proposed that he saw pranayama as the base ingredient from which idli was made. That it was the foundation for developing nourishment for the mind. But, if too much flour was used in one sitting, or the mix was over fermented it would spoil – inevitably he would become stuck. Also, that this mix was used in many traditional foods and to stick to one would be robbing his pallet. Only once he had tasted a variety of recipes could he be sure to find one best suited to him.
The lad raised an eyebrow; needless to say he ate all his lunch for the first time since arriving.

Lifting the veil of Duality

So often we read: that gaining mastery over our ego will promise liberation and that once we do this, we will get promoted into the ‘oneness division’. What a lovely idea this is. But how can we crack the safe of spirituality, and drink from the fountain of enlightenment, in practical terms? The good news is: it doesn’t matter whether you’re taking your first or millionth step down the path of self discovery, liberation can be yours…
To read more go to my Yoga section.

Om Sweet Om

Puja family

 It is true; the roots of yoga grow both wide and deep, perhaps this is why it provides such fruitful offerings. But, as modern day yogis, it is sometimes difficult to comprehend and adhere to some of the complexities passed down from our forefathers. We have studied sacred texts, in hope that yoga will provide an antidote to the stress of modern living, but still we get caught up! Diligently, we aim our practice, both on and off the mat, at enhancing the world we live in, but often we are stretched in more ways than one. Of course, because we understand the concept of ‘balance’, we are soon able to bounce back. But why is attaining yoga (union) such an ongoing challenge for us?  I was recently invited to India, to stay with a Hindu family, in the hope of finding some answers. It was the sights, smells and sounds that triggered an insatiable appetite to write, but the simplicity in which they lived became most poignant.

Looking through the window of my sleeper carriage, at the lush countryside dotted with candy coloured homes my heart begins to thaw. As the iron wheels clatter rhythmically against the tracks, my body is gently cradled back and forth like that of a new born baby. My journey to this cauldron of spiritual soup where Muslims, Christians and Hindus live harmoniously side by side is well over due. After three years of trying to fathom out the status quo, I have returned to Kerala, ’Gods own country’. With the optimism of an Indian sales man, my work is to reignite that part of me which was woken during a previous visit.

I have the privilege of living with a very committed, but humble yoga master named Paramas. With Brahman (Hindu priest) blood running through his veins, a candle burns ever bright in his heart. Upon entering the traditional Kerala home, I am moved by its simplicity. With the calmness of a Buddhist temple, ornate wooden pillars support a lattice of hand carved beams, revealing the craftsmanship of a bygone age. Beneath a large shaft of pure daylight, in the centre of the living room, sits a Tulsi plant (Holy Basil) which is fully exposed to the elements. During the rainy season, a waterfall cascades through the centre of the home before draining away onto the surrounding land. Such architecture is called nal-u-ket-tu, based on the Hindu philosophy Vastuu. Vastuu uses astrology and the 5 elements (pancha-mahab-hutas) to better place buildings with their environment. Similar to the Japanese art of Feng Shui, it provides the dweller with a comfortable living space that is sympathetic to the flow of energy.

After being introduced to Param’s wife and 3 small children, I am acquainted with the bread winners of the family, a small herd of sacred cows. The garden, in which they reside, is an oasis of life. Filled with exotic fruits, herbs, and flowers, it provides more than enough temptation to the birds and butterflies that visit. With no actual boundary to this 6 acre site, it is hard to distinguish ‘owned’ by man and on loan from God. Occasionally, amongst the tapestry of greens, appears a brightly coloured sari, the wearer of which carries jug upon head, requesting milk. This white unpasteurised elixir tastes divine and when boiled soothes the body like medicine. Things, I take for granted, require incredible effort here and yet the emphasis on doing and getting things done seems to have no importance.

From behind the kitchen door, hums a grinding stone which is busy preparing our supper. The sound provides a gentle melody, to which the family sit down together and chant before we eat. The home is now alight with oil filled lamps and love. Shadows flicker, across statues of deities, whilst portraits of previous generations watch over us. There is a sense of wonderment in the air. I am safe, amongst people who have little care for possessions and yet possess everything…

The essence of yoga is prevalent in every breath they take.

puja boy